music and school and sun and insomnia

these are a few of the things that i somehow cant seem to escape. love them or hate them theyre there, you know

anyway. am i getting more boring or are people getting less interested. or more lazy. because it seems no one bothers to comment on this thing anymore. not that im deeply scarred or whatever, but it was sort of fun to feel like i was writing these with some sort of purpose. and reading comments entertains me. so comment damnit

i am extremely extremely muchly hoping that i get to see panic at the disco(again) AND the cab live next month. not that ive ever played rock band in my entire life (rock band live tour) but who cares right. and dashboard confessional, who i like, but am not super duper excited about. i am entirely in love with the cab and obviously panic, tho. so hopefully that happens for me.

also hopefully for me... hopefully something noteworthy and guy related happens soon. i absolutely hate liking someone for certain reason, such as feeling slightly pathetic, but at the same time once you stop liking someone all the fun is taken out of waking up at five am. lol not that there was really much fun to begin with, but it just gives more meaning to going to school. and i mean im having fun anyway but i miss the drama. it detracts from the monotony

in geography class today i descovered i get bored more easily than almost anyone on the planet. the teacher was giving us the answers to a quiz wed just taken so that we could correct it ourselves for studying, and like two seconds in im not joking i completely forgot she was talking and started drawing a moon on puppet strings and bordering my paper with crazy insane stuff. and then everyone started packing up and im like "...crap."

theres things that i have done you never, should ever know

second star to the right. always

scope it

new fall out boy single, "i dont care" -

http://www.falloutboyrock.com/falloutboy/blog_detail.php?uf_item_id=1-106092&uf_system_id=1

..."say my name, and his in the same breath, i dare you to say they taste the same"

<3<3<3

total freshy

first week of high school went faaaast. and it was way too amazing. lots i want to tell but not sure ill get to it all. ill try.

first day was fun in a confused-but-not-the-only-one kind of way. me and j-leno were pretty much inseperable the whole day. neither of us had any idea where we were going and we just kept cracking up laughing at ourselves. im glad hes at prairie with me. ive known that kid since second grade and hes way cool. also found out chase is accually going to prairie. he said hed be going to bg. what a liar. but i forgive him. he walked with me to my bus and we talked which was cool cause i hadnt had a lot of time for that the whole day.

second day went pretty normal-ish. chase was too busy reading harry potter(hes such a trekki) to walk with me again, but i had fun anyway.

third day was a pep-rally and a dance. THAT was amazing. the pep rally was kinda corny in a fun way, but hey whatdya expect. my sis and neighbor both went to the dance, but none of my other friends were there. it wasnt really a huge bummer tho. im good at making friends. i danced with alone in the thick of the crowd for a while but by the end i found a few guys to dance with. [...note to sister: if youre reading this right now and laughing... i will kill you]

yesterday was also fun. i got some more info on possibly going to paris with my french class this summer (:o) thatll be super epic. im pretty darn excited. i officially know like 14 franch words now. woo hoo.

so thats basically it. again with the waking up at five in the morning, the almost-falling asleep while my science teacher rambles about corn, and all that. i am most definantly going to have fun this year.

ps vitamin string qaurtet's cover of time to dance by patd is breathtaking
you know i had to say something about music

second start to the right. always

wont talk long

"please dont go. i need you"
sorry. i must sleep a tad bit tonight though. tomorrow i have school. that sounds right in my head but feels wrong in my body which is at this moment particularly aching for rest. sorry body. my brain disagrees.
funny the things you remember from summer. one scene sticks out in my head for some reason. maybe because it sort of sumerizes these past two months for me. i remember sitting on the chipping-red-paint rail of the bridge down past our house over the little creek, in my cutoff jeans, swinging my feet and listening to "sitting waiting wishing" by jack johnson thinking about where i am and what i want in terms of how far from making sense of anything i am.
no that was not a clever connotation of what i was thinking based on the song. it accually happened that way. or maybe the song subconsciously put those thoughts in my head.
or maybe its four in the morning and our smoke detector needs a new battery. maybe my head needs a new battery. maybe i wish i had something to tell people about my summer. maybe i have no idea what im saying or why right now. maybe i should stop.
maybe this means more to you than i could ever possibly imagine. and maybe no one cares as much as wed like to believe they do

second star to the right. always

happy birthday ryan ross

and happy yester-birthday mj. you rule. even if your face is wack and you should be black

haha

ps

no amount of you will ever make me okay. no amount of oxygen will ever make it easier to breathe. no amount of smiles will ever make me see through you. and none of it changes the fact that half of me could not spend the next five hours without you

please steal my heart and then give it away

I KISSED A BOY JUST TO START SHIT! BITCHES LOVED IT! cobralicious baby

oh my geez. laughing myself silly. more on that later

for starts... today was a good day. fall out boy not only announced their new album, but also gave us a decaydence mixtape, including fob, patd, cobra starship, the cab, the academy is, and gch.

the new album drops on november fourth internationally. its titled "folie a deux", which is french, and translates to "madness of two". folie a deux is a rare psychiatric syndrome in which a symptom of paranoid or delusional belief is transmitted from one individual to another. (nuh uh i so did not copy that from wikipedia you stupid head)

the mixtape is amazing. fall out boy provided us a list of twenty+ free songs for download off of friendsorenemies.com as a reward for playing along with their whole "citizens for our betterment" insanity. my personal favorite after a few of the fall out boy songs obviously would have to be "i kissed a boy" by cobra starship. i laughed so hard the first time i heard it. its an obvious play of off katy perry, and its hilarious. i also really like "bounce, bounce", "almost witches", "lake effect kid", and "catch me if you can". go to youtube and search "fall out boy mixtape" and you should find most of these and a few more. sorry im too lazy to post them.

i think ill probably go watch lord of the rings now. my moms boyfriends cat is eating a featherduster and my hair smells fruitier than normal. huh.

ps went shopping yesterday. got lots of amazing tops, purple skinny jeans, grey-and-black checkered skinny jeans, and a rocking pair of shoes. except for the supply shopping part im pretty much ready to hit that school

pss here are a few cat-related quotes so you can share in the oddness of the big white thing thats attacking everything in sight right now. his name is spud

"one time i fell in love with a cat. then i realized it wasnt a human being. it was not as romantic as we thought." - pete wentz (you knew id find one

"im chat(4ev ago):

me - i keep forgetting i got a new fish
me - i fed it some cat food
friend - why the heck would you feed a fish cat food?!?
me -it was probably hungry"

baha i am so strange. that fish died by the way

second star to the right. always